One year ago my best friend passed away. The last time I walked through these woods, I was with Maisie and Annie and she and I had just finished a phone call. I knew it was bad, but I didn’t know that I would never see or talk to her again. I haven’t been back to these woods since then because they remind me of her.
Today I went back. It was time to see this beautiful place again. This time with Maisie, Annie and Winn. My daughter also came with me and as we walked I was able to breathe the air, smell the leaves and think of my friend and enjoy this place once again.
I’m so thankful for this transformation in my heart. The passage of time helps, but being with my three dogs and my lovely daughter made it easier to venture in and embrace the natural beauty that surrounded us.
Enjoy other pictures of transformation here.
In early November I took the dogs to a forest preserve that we had not previously explored. It was a gorgeous, sunny day and I was excited to walk through the woods and see what we would see. Just prior to our walk, I had finished a phone conversation with a friend who just a few days before had received an unexpected, devastating health diagnosis. I didn’t know it then, but this would be the last time I spoke to her. The following day she was moved into ICU and put on life support. It is all so hard to understand.
After I hung up the phone, the tears began to flow and somehow in my heart, I knew things would never be the same again. As I looked down at the dog’s eager faces, I figured a walk in the woods was exactly what I needed at that time.
I let the dogs lead the way and surrounded by the fresh air, the blue sky and the sun shining through the trees, I began to feel the peace of the moment take over my emotions. We were the only ones out there and all that I could hear were the leaves crunching under our feet and a babbling stream that was out of sight. By the time we found our way back to the car, my heartache had eased a bit and my head felt clear.
We’ve gone back to this place a few times, and just like that first experience, I am able let go of all of the things that are on my mind. I never shared this place with my friend, but when I am there I can’t help but think of her. Each time it gets a little easier as I remember the tiny moments we shared. Things I had forgotten that somehow come flooding back when there is no one else around aside from my dogs. It’s a place we all enjoy and I consider it a retreat from all of the stresses that swirl around as life goes on.